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Life is so sweet sometimes... that I can almost taste it. Sometimes it is like pure cocoa, refined, and beautiful. At other times, it can become bittersweet, where you just want to take what you've been given and spit it out, never to have it to return to your mouth again.
I've looked at my life, my accomplishments, etc. I've also looked at my trials and tribulations... or I should say -- 'others' trials and tribulations..' and I shake my head in amazement at what makes people tick sometimes.
I've come a bit down to Earth since last night. I received news that my 50 year old brother, who was diagnosed with stage four colon cancer awhile back , needs an operation to get the tumors out of his liver. This consists of a 5 -7 hour operation, and then they will 'resection it'. My goodness. Its almost unbearable thinking about it.
I love my brother to death. He is the one 'constant' in my life that I can rely on. He is my 'rock'.
Nothing can make this 'feeling' go away. I keep wondering if there is something more I can do, to give him the 'encouragement' and prayer along the way that I sought when I was loosing my weight. I feel somehow I have failed him.
We can go along in life without acknowledging the good that others bring to our daily lives. We acknowledge our own accomplishments, but really -- I'd give it all back just to make him feel a wee bit better.
Its just when things get dark and heavy, I need something to hang onto, his hand in mine, and together we can get through his surgery, knowing he gave it his all, and we were there for each other.
I cannot let another minute go by without wondering if all that I do is ever 'enough'. I do a lot for my family and for myself, but just how much do I REALLY do for others ? I'm going to have to evaluate that with continuous prayer.
Sometimes, Big Easy on Low Carb ISN'T SO EASY.
Bayoubabe
I've looked at my life, my accomplishments, etc. I've also looked at my trials and tribulations... or I should say -- 'others' trials and tribulations..' and I shake my head in amazement at what makes people tick sometimes.
I've come a bit down to Earth since last night. I received news that my 50 year old brother, who was diagnosed with stage four colon cancer awhile back , needs an operation to get the tumors out of his liver. This consists of a 5 -7 hour operation, and then they will 'resection it'. My goodness. Its almost unbearable thinking about it.
I love my brother to death. He is the one 'constant' in my life that I can rely on. He is my 'rock'.
Nothing can make this 'feeling' go away. I keep wondering if there is something more I can do, to give him the 'encouragement' and prayer along the way that I sought when I was loosing my weight. I feel somehow I have failed him.
We can go along in life without acknowledging the good that others bring to our daily lives. We acknowledge our own accomplishments, but really -- I'd give it all back just to make him feel a wee bit better.
Its just when things get dark and heavy, I need something to hang onto, his hand in mine, and together we can get through his surgery, knowing he gave it his all, and we were there for each other.
I cannot let another minute go by without wondering if all that I do is ever 'enough'. I do a lot for my family and for myself, but just how much do I REALLY do for others ? I'm going to have to evaluate that with continuous prayer.
Sometimes, Big Easy on Low Carb ISN'T SO EASY.
Bayoubabe
5 comments:
It is very hard anytime a close friend or family member is ill. There is nothing I can say that will ease your stress but I will remember you and your brother in my prayers.
Hang in there !
I'm so sorry that your brother (and all his/your loved ones) is/are going through such a rough time.
I think the most important thing you can give him is reaffirming the knowledge that you love him deeply and that you and others value him a great deal.
Helping him to feel loved, valued and hopeful seems like a good place to start.
Trust your instincts and what you learn from prayer. They won't steer you wrong.
Do your best to stay strong and know that we'll all be hoping and praying for the best. :)
I'm sending love, hugs and prayers your way. I'm sorry you and your family are going through this tough time.
(((HUGS)))
thanks to everyone for your thoughts and prayers at this time. they are truly needed. his surgery is scheduled for next thursday.
Blessings
bayoubabe
I am so sorry about your brother. I lost my brother in June last year and while we weren't close geographically for many years, I miss him. I'll remember you and your brother in my prayers
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